Tuesday, September 25, 2012

82 days and 32 pounds later....




these 2 pictures are what made me decide to get lap band surgery. When I saw these pictures I realized that at that weight (274) and size (20), when I said "being fat doesn't bother me, I am happy" It was not the truth any longer, I had gotten to the point that it was bothering me, it was affecting my life, my being a good mom was harder, playtime was painful, my back hurt SO bad, everything was in some way was starting to be a lil bit different because I was fat, I had never felt that way before I had never felt that my being fat changed how I was living other that be a fat girl it didn't make me behave differently just same ol me always,  I have not been fat my whole life, so I remember being thin and I know that I felt the same up intil this year right about the time these (horrible) photos were taken... I am lucky to have had "glory days" and I want them back! .... so anyways these pictures made me think one thing.....

that was me... then....

on July 5, 2012 I got my lil gadget, my lap band! and this is me 82 days later....

 
this picture is a bad one, but it was the most recent, I will have my hubby take one tomorrow and put in in right under here........
 
but there is a big difference I think... I feel so much better, my face is smaller my belly is smaller and I am down 32 pounds so it has to be gone from somewhere right lol actually these pants are my husbands pajama pants (I am wearing in the yard in the pic above) so you cant see, but my bum is smaller!
 
 
so here it is in numbers.......
starting weight 274 pounds
current weight 242 pounds!!!
*****32 pounds down******
92 pounds 'til I hit my goal... I got this!!
 
here I am last time I was about 150 pounds
 
that is a brownie lol working on getting rid of that flat belly!
 

Sunday, September 16, 2012

what is with me?

what is with me lately I just cant seem to get motivated to finish a post, I start them and then something comes up, like cat puke on the rug, or Johnny waking up at 11pm just to chill for 2 hours... anyways I am going in for another fill 2-moro I hope this is the one that makes me feel like I have a band, because lately with 7cc in my 14cc band I don't really feel my tool lol I am still going strong with will power, but I feel like I would be losing better if I had my tool working with me...

I have been working on a 2 month update since my 2 month bandiversary lol and still it is not done, wtf am i waiting for, maybe I just wish I was able to report a better loss, or better after pics with a more noticeable difference -I guess I am just going to finish the dang post and let you guys be the judge, it is hard for me to tell cuz I see me everyday lol...

I have been fighting the urge to cut off all of my hair, I have beat the urge, my hair is here to stay (for now lol) but I am going to get it colored..

oh shit I almost forgot to mention my NSV's

ok, 1.) I can shave in the shower sooo much easier now
      2.) I fit in some of my pre pregnancy jeans
      3.) I am actually starting to feel smaller, like crossing my legs, sitting cuddled on the couch, etc. I feel pretty tiny sometimes (though I am farrrr from tiny lol lmao!)
     4.) getting Johnny into his car seat is a lot easier for me now, I am less in my own way!

I am enjoying these things...


well just know that the 2 month post is coming next and I swear on my cats life it will have pics... hope you are all rocking your bands...

I will leave you with this pic of me and Johnny a few weeks ago at the beach...

Sunday, September 9, 2012

still losing..

the other day my mother was saying how I have to get back on track, but I have not gone off track I think that because I do not talk about how I am doing daily anymore and I do not talk about the great food choices I have been making she must have assumed I had fallen off the wagon, but I have not I am really doing great, I think I just do not talk about it because it is just my way of life now, and I am in the groove ( lol ) just going along eating right, eating little, and eating only when I am hungry not bored or just because it is lunch time or dinner time. I am happy that my mom noticed that I have not mentioned it much lately,  she is use to me maybe being on a diet and sneaking off and not talking about it anymore so I am happy that she is here for accountability, I cant just not blog for awhile she is here 2 town away so she will know when I am being bad haha, but I am happy to say I am still rocking my band doing it right and I am down another 4 pounds. so my weight now is 244 thank you very much lol ..... love ya Ma thanks for checking on me...  

lets see what else...
my hubby is still out of work...
my lil guy will be 2 years old in 3 weeks ( OMG!! )
I have had 2 yardsales cleared out lots of space in the basement for my Gym & made $180 ( not bad )
we are going apple & pumpkin picking tomorrow, I love living in New England!
it is 64 chilly degrees and rainy, yesterday was 80's and humid that is New England....but here comes Fall woohoo, LOVE my New England fall...

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

feeling charitable, votes needed...lol

hello bloggy buddys I wonder if you would be so kind as to vote for my lil guy here I entered him into a Gerber photo contest for $50,000 for college and the way my hubbys job search is going (he got laid off 2 weeks ago) Johnny is going to need that $50,000 ... (pitty votes are accepted lol) anywho, if you have the time it would be awesome, and you can vote daily if you have lots of time lol okay that is enough begging thanks for reading. stay tuned for my next post (2-moro) lots of me yapping and complaining about my COBRA costing me $1500 per month, while a convicted murderer is getting a sex change operation paid for by me and the other taxpayers gggrrrrrrrr! well on that note good night all Happy September, and remember VOTE FOR MY JOHNNY!!!! :o) 

 OKAY SO I DONT THINK THE LINK WORKS SOOOOO go to my facebook page and click on the "thingy" I posted there to vote pretty please... with splenda on top. 

Sunday, September 2, 2012

check out "eggfaces" new give away....

check out this blog -the world according to eggface- for her most recent give away.... here ..... looks like some awesome products, maybe I will win something for the first time in my life, or maybe you will win, so , check it out...